Thursday, December 18, 2008

Can I skip christmas this year?

For those that know me well, it is a known fact that I am an emotional roller coaster. Most of the time I manage myself well and only a couple people know when I am seriously down.
However this Christmas I would love to just curl up in bed and not get up til the new year. Even then I'm not sure that my moos would perk up any. What really suck is I have nothing to be "depressed" about. I have a wonderful family, whom I love to no end, awesome friends, that put up with my shit, and MOSTLY a FANTASTIC husband that through all the craziness still loves me and tries his hardest to keep me up.
As side from all of that, I am drowning in my own dis pare. Over what? I would like to know that too. I'm tired of feeling like this, up and down every couple months is getting on my nerves. I'm tired of relaying on medication to "fell better or normal". I want to just BE normal.
I take on the emotions of friends and family and can't shake it sometime. A friend recently had a miscarriage, actually her second in a year, and my heart is so tore for her. I have three beautiful children and she has lost two. I have never lost a child but it hurt me to the core to know that she is in such pain. I can't find the words to say to her to tell her my feelings of her pain.
My mom has also be hurting emotionally lately, my grandmother passed away a year ago this week. I am feeling guilty that I was unable to go to the funeral and support my mom like she needed me to. And I was unable to give my goodbyes to my awesome grandma. I think about her all the time and wish she could hug me and let me cry.
Instead I am poring my heart out to the huge thing called the internet in hopes that getting it all out will improve my mood and help me enjoy the holiday, instead of faking my mood.
Going to blow my nose now because I have cried while witting this entire blog post.

Friday, October 31, 2008

Year of a Million ZZZZZZZ's (part 4 of 4,part2)

I had to include this into the Disney trip even though we were "on our way home". We checked out of Disney and decided we needed to go over to Downtown Disney. Shopping, shopping and yes MORE shopping!!! However what did I do I took pictures of cool thing that I saw so here are a few of those.....
Lego FamilyLego DragonLego DinoWall of Lego peopleWall of LegosLogan LegoKyleigh Lego
Yeah the Lego store was the coolest!! We all loved it!!
After spending a couple hours shopping, we were off. But not leaving Florida just yet!! We decided to cross the state and head to the beach, why?? Well because I figured being so close to the ocean and not going to see it could possibly be a crime. Plus I was hoping to stop my kids from thinking that any lake or pond they saw was the ocean. Show it to them in person and then they would understand just how big the ocean is!!
Sign at Cape Canaveral BeachFirst steps on the beachBeautiful Veiwthe wave was chasing him
The ocean was beautiful and fun. The kids LOVED it and did not want to leave but we still had a VERY long drive home, plus the added hours it took to get to the beach, but it was all worth it!!

Year of a Million ZZZZZZZ's (part 4 of 4,part1)

OK so the last day at Disney was to go to Animal Kingdom, what can I say about this. Well it was my least favorite and I could have skipped it all together! In my opinion it was the Disney Zoo, which is not that special. I mean the safari was cool, but that was really the only thing we did because we all wanted to go back to Epcot to see the thing we missed the day before.
Ky with PocahontasErik with a Tiger
We did get tons of pictures of animals but I'm not going to fill my blog up with pictures of animals that are not mine!! LOL
We went off to Epcot, and I got my oldest to ride test track and mission to mars, so I felt it was a productive day!! LOL After Epcot we had one last Character dinner it was with Chef Mickey and Friends.
Loang and Ky with Chef MickeyErik and Chef MickeyMickey giving Erik a hugMinnie with all threeDonald and all threeKy and Logan with Chef PlutoErik checking out Plutos whiskersMe and Goofy

Year of a Million ZZZZZZZ's (part 3 of 4)

hubby and kids in front of Epcot
Day Three...First things first, the night before in Magic Kingdom, my Daughter was Crowned Princess for the day, however it was right before the park closed, so we told her to wear her crown on the third day. While on the bus to Epcot (which we were the only riders) they made and announcement that "We have royalty riding with us today, Welcome Princess! " My daughter thought that was the coolest thing in the whole world. So we started off entering Epcot, and spent an hour or so in the innovations place, then we realized that we needed to get to the World Showcase and for that matter to Norway. Yet another Character meal!! (Damn Disney for making me eat so much!!)

We had lunch in Norway with all (or most) of the Princesses. Not one of my oldest Favorite meals, he looked completely bored. However he may have been jealous of the little one because he was kissed by Jasmine!!
Jasmine gave Erik his first kiss!! Can you see the smirk?
Ky and belleKy and JasmineKy and ArielKy and AroraKy and Cinderelle
He was smitten the rest of the day!!
After lunch we continued to explore the world, round the world in a day!! LOL
While we went around the world, hubby and I tasted a lot of yummy wines. Out of all of the great places around the world my top three were Germany, Italy, and Morocco. While in Morocco I actually got a henna tattoo, sadly it as worn off already but it lasted over a week.
Ky and DonaldKy and Logan in China.Ky and Logan in AustraliaFamily in ItlayPagoda and epcot ballParis at sunsetMayan temple across the lake at sunsetMy henna tattoo on my hand!

After a long day at World Showcase, cause no we did not get back over to Epcot except to walk out. We had to head back over to the Magic Kingdom for "Mickey's Not So Scary Halloween", which was a giant sized trick or treat feast! WE walked around and collected candy in a not as busy park. It was fun but I think we were all just pooped. The kids and I all got our faces painted for FREE instead of paying $12 a piece so that was nice. And we got to ride the teacups which made me feel like a little kid again!!
My wild animalsDonald and erik doing the jigDonald and Ky dancingGhost of MickeyMe and Ky and Logan in the tea cups!

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Year of a Million ZZZZZZZ's (part 2 of 4)

Ok second day started with a most awesome breakfast, at the most beautiful resort. We had breakfast with Lilo and Stitch! I think it was all of our favorite Character meals. Apart for having to get up at the crack of dawn to make it to the breakfast it was fantastic. After breakfast it was off to the Magic Kingdom!!
Hula mickey and the kidsPluto and the kidsStitch is tickling erikDude...Whats up?Lilo and Stitch and the kids BTW erik was the funniest (the little one) because he hardly ever looked at the camera long enough to get a good picture of him, he was too interested in the characters.)

After breakfast we went to the Magic Kingdom. The Magic Kingdom is HUGE!!! Holy cow we spent 4 hours in tomorrow land!! We did the Stitch ride, it was cute, and scared the crap out of my daughter. We did the Monsters Inc Laugh floor, very cute. AND SPACE MOUNTAIN, totally not as scary as I wanted it to be! Oh well it was all fun!! The rest of the day was spent walking around the rest of the various areas of the park!
The whole Ham Fam Damily! on a train.
I did get my oldest to ride Splash Mountain with me, NO I did not get a picture of us. However by the end of the day we did look a little tired. LOL
Kyleigh in a big hat!Logan looking soooooo happy in a big hat!!Where is Erik?
At the end of the night we ate at Tony's it is a restaurant inspired by Lady and the Tramp. It was so Nice and the food was AMAZING!!! Well it was either amazing or we were amazingly tired, but I'm pretty sure it was amazing food!! LOL
Lady and tramp on the window of the restaurant.

Stay tuned for more to come tomorrow!!!